My mother was an Austrian Cuddle dog and my father was a Bagel and I guess that’s why I have floppy ears I wish I had my mommy‘s ears – then I think I would look better – my owner says I’m homely..I love being at home! We finally agree on something..
lately I’ve been pretty bad – there’s been lots of danger everywhere and my owner gets worried and is walking me late at night so I don’t see anything.. she’s pretty stressed out and she spends a lot of time crying I’ve heard her say it’s because of COVID -and that she was having flash backs of bad things because of me!! am I COVID??
sometimes it feels like there are a lot of people in the house – my owner has a big shiny box and a little shiny box and people are in the boxes because I can hear them but I can’t smell them and she is always talking to them and they talk back I guess they don’t know I’m here because a lot of times she talks about me to other people who talk about me too …I heard some terrible things about how I wasn’t being very good and that in the past there was talk about putting me down….and when she said that she sounded really really sad .. I don’t understand!! I always lie down when she asks me to -she never has to put me down!! I just do it – so I don’t know what to do – I’ll just try lie down more.. she was talking to someone and saying how I was really aggressive and I heard them say – she’ll probably never change since she’s four ..I’m four?? four what?..and maybe my owner should give me back – I heard it it – I did!! back to the poberanean – back to the cage .. my owner was crying and she said she wasn’t going to give me back until after the new year! really ?? – it’s all over for me .. I give up ..
my owner called her psychcondiatrist on her little box and l heard him say she was having flashbacks because she couldn’t protect me and it reminded her of the times in her life she couldn’t protect her self ….and the stress of a COVID was making it worse..I felt really sad because I didn’t know people had hurt her too..and it’s up to me to protect her now – but how can do that but if I am COVID??
we had a big emergency the other night !! my owner seemed really jumpy and there was a water sound even though it wasn’t raining and I growled and she went up to check outside and she checked the cellar and got really upset and grabbed me and just put my one collar on (she forgot the other two) and ran out of the house with her little box and I heard her call and say 911 – she said there was sewage in the cellar – I don’t know what sewage is but it smelled like poop to me – bad poop -and she wanted someone to come right away we were in the middle of the street and it was really dark and there was no one there – so I just stayed really close to her and sat near her foot …and then big trucks came and men with big big sticks and they were on the street and they pulled up the big round things in the street and they made big heavy metal sounds and my owner was very upset -she asked a man what she should do and he said she should call someone to clean up the cellar and so she started talking with her a little box and we were in the street with the trucks and all these men and lights and she was on the little box and I heard the box saying they could come tonight and then they were more trucks and people in white suits and helmets and hoses and they went into the house and down to the cellar and I just stayed with her because I knew she was really really upset -and then we went back in the house and it was getting light outside and she was on the sofa and she fell asleep – but I stayed up sitting next to her and I was making sure that those people couldn’t get to her – and she woke up a couple of times and saw me sitting and gave me a big hug and I felt really important!! I was protecting her and I didn’t bark even though there were lots of men and trucks
I was just making sure she knew I was there for her.. I think things changed after that she hugged me a lot in the next day after everything was cleaned up and when the painter came I didn’t bark I just stayed close to her and she hugged me more she gave me tummy rubs and rubbed my ears and gave me treats …..maybe she won’t bring me back …
we had a walk today snd nothing happened!! actually I pooped and peed – my second trainer said that I lift my leg when I pee and I pee everywhere like a boy but I think it’s important for people to know I’m here so I’m not gonna let that make me feel bad ..I wonder if my owner has noticed there are no raccoons or skunks in the yard anymore ..probably not…
I’’m back to sleeping on the bed which is nice I had an issue with toes under the covers when they move it’s scary and I growl at them because I don’t know they’re toes.. I just see the cover is moving!! so one day my owner just pushed me off the bed for growling and put lots of pillows around herself and went back to sleep – that wasn’t going to stop me..and when she woke up I was on the bed and the stupid pillows were on the floor – she started laughing.. I love it when she laughs and she hugged me and gave me a kiss on the head (that was weird) anyway as long as I can sleep on the bed I feel pretty good my chances are better.. my owner has stopped crying since the meltdown she had – but I think about things that must’ve happened to her before me – she is by herself now – well not really because I’m here but I never see anyone else except on the street everyone looks the same they have big white faces – luckily they all smell different – and there is never any one but us in the house – well once the plumber came to fix the faucet and I tried to kill him so that wasn’t good – but he was in the house and that was wrong because no one is ever in the house except my owner and me..
sometimes I think my owner is not happy – she’s always sitting in front of the big box and there are so many people – I hear them all talking to her and she just sits all day and I have to remind her to stop and go out with me – she does the same thing every day – after she wakes gets up she takes me out in the yard to pee and then she feeds me and then she eats stuff that smells better than my food – I try to let her know by looking very sad that I would like some eggs and bacon rather than whatever that is in my food dish – I’ve heard people say the dogs eat anything but I don’t eat anything I just eat what’s in my bowl.. anyway it’s better than before so I’m not complaining and I show my appreciation by eating it.. I still have danger issues I’m not sure what I can do to communicate how dangerous the world is to my owner and I feel responsible for protecting her but she doesn’t understand danger – it puts me in a terrible place because I have to keep her safe but I also need to make sure she’s not upset with me because then I have to go back to the old place and I want to stay with her!! I know I call her my owner but she might not be my owner so I should probably call her by her name which I think is Gargyl – I mean I want her to be my owner but I don’t wanna get my hopes up…
to be continued.
a dog's point of view 